Sunday, August 7, 2016

Being Yourself, marijuana, and a few other things...

There is this ridiculous ad on the radio right now, I think I overheard it was put out by the sheriff's department. In essence, under the guise of providing helpful information, it talks about marijuana, which is legal now here in Washington. It tells how a teen's brain is developing, and essentially says marijuana and other drugs (recreational drugs implied) have a negative effect on that.

I had to laugh at the sheer stupidity of this. First of all I have yet to see even one, credible, independent, not funded by the prescription drug companies report proving that marijuana has even the slightest impact on any brain, from a baby's to an old man (which I am sure it does), and that any effect it does have on this is somehow negative, implying it is permanent and damaging the brain in some way.

I remember back in grade school how DARE came in and told us that marijuana was addictive. I think I remember that correctly. Of course I know from personal experience that this is not true. In fact, it is no more addictive than alcohol. Yet you have people who drink a lot, and do drugs a lot. They aren't addicted to the substances they are consuming. They are addicted to the feeling they get from them. It is more a habit than an addiction. I used to eat a lot of Doritos potato chips. Bags a night. Was I addicted to them? No. My brain was affected by the MSG they contain, sending signals that the chips tasted good, making me eat more. Then eating chips became a habit because I was becoming a pain eater (someone who eats their pain.) But MSG is no more an addictive substance than marijuana.

The biggest issue with this stupid commercial is that long before teens even try marijuana, or cigarettes (which does have shit in it that has a negative effect on the physical body - at any age), parents have taken them to doctors where they have been prescribed more drugs than my 90 year old grandmother! Prescription drugs for ADD, depression and insomnia to name a few! That will have FAR, FAR more of a detrimental impact than marijuana. And teens have been on these since they were children. So you want to talk about negative impact on a developing brain (and body) let's start there, shall we? By the time teens get to the hard recreational stuff their brains and bodies have already suffered a lot of damage, probably more substantial than anything they would get from most of the hard stuff. Certainly far more than anything they would get taking shrooms, smoking weed or dropping acid (to name a few.)

The police do not know what they are talking about. They are not doctors or medical professionals. They are enforces of the law, which states that most of not all -non-prescription drugs are illegal on a Federal level, and that pretty much everything else other than marijuana, at least here in Washington, is illegal on a local/state level.

The cops don't give a flying fuck about your health. If they did they would attach prescription drugs with the same vigor they beat up street vendors selling harmless weed. They main priority is the law, and they only regurgitate the same false beliefs their superiors shoved down their throats since they first signed up. That drugs are bad, if someone doesn't have a prescription for them.

You can get brain damage from breathing the smog in New York, or living near high voltage power lines. MSG in your food probably does more brain damage. Prescription drugs certainly does more. So why the focus on marijuana, where any brain damage that may occur, which has not been scientifically proven, is minor at best and likely not permanent. I mean a developing brain still has the power to heal and rewire itself, right?

Oh and let's not forget about brain plasticity. The implication of this ad is that the brains somehow hardens or stops growing and developing once you reach some indeterminate age. But it's a scientific fact that the brain is always making new connections, always growing and developing on that way, based on a person's activities, meditation being one of them. The brains of 30 year-olds who have mediated a year or more are far different than of those in the same age/race group who have not.

They want you to believe you will somehow become lazy or stupid if you smoke weed. You can only become lazy or stupid if you get addicted to how you feel on weed and start smoking all the time. Weed relaxes you, you will not feel like doing anything else. It affects your concentration and focus, you can not work while on it. Neither of these are necessarily bad things, unless you live in a society that wants everyone to be productive little wage slaves, like ours. There is nothing inherently wrong with sitting around smoking pot all day. But you won't be paying rent or getting out to do much if you do. You become unproductive, and our materialistic society has no tolerance for anyone who is not some cog in the machine.

You have to find a balance here. Put in your hard day of work without using any mind-altering substances of any kind, then come home and smoke weed all you like. Best way to relax and far more effective pain relief than anything in the store. You just have to be responsible about how you use these things. If you are a teen don't give into peer pressure, to smoke or ingest anything. Make sure that it is your own uninfluenced choice when you join in and drink a beer, or smoke a cig or a joint. Same for sex - don't have sex just because all your friends got laid and you are afraid of being left behind. That is the stupidest reason in the history of stupid reasoning to have sex. Have sex when you are ready for it and you want it, and of course when you partner is ready for it and wants it.

It all comes down to taking what the adults and those in authority say with a grain of salt. Do not be influenced by the beliefs and opinions of others. Use your own mind, make your own decisions, decide what you want to believe, and always, always question everything, especially your beliefs. Be Yourself! What does that mean? It means to think for yourself, choose your own beliefs, and make your own choices, regardless of what others order, say or tell you to do, and that includes the law! You are the best authority on your life, whatever your age (which is merely the number of times you have been around the sun) happens to be.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Please show your support! Donate or Share!

I have removed the old Amazon Payments image and added a widget to my GoFundMe campaign, "Pedaling to Passion." I would appreciate your support, whether you donate to the campaign or simply share it.

At the end of the month I will be, by society's definition, homeless. Technically I can continue to live with my parents when they move to Battlground, WA. But they are moving to a small single-wide trailer. It doesn't take the gift of prophecy to see that to live there would mean continuing to live as I have, sitting here, staring at a computer or TV screen. I have been doing that for most of my life, and I am done with it.

My parents have never done anything like this. I don't think they even could. My dad talks about hiking the PCT someday. I hope he does, I want him to follow his heart, his passion. But I don't think he ever will. He started in a single-wide trailer, and now he's just repeating that same old cycle. Nothing of significance has changed for him or my mom since he retired from Safeway 30 years ago. My parents are, as I said somewhere else, at anchor on the sea of life. To join them in Battleground would be to live the same same way. But I want to go exploring!

It seems to me we sell our ambition, our dreams, our passion, in exchange for what society says we should have. Comfort, safety, security. Or we go the other extreme, throw out everything to live with nothing a a monk of some religion or other. How many of us have ever found the balance, where we follow our ambition, our heart, our passion, and through that find a way to provide comfort, safety and security for ourselves, if that is what we want?

I either have no passion or I have forgotten what it was. I want more from life than a room in a single-wide trailer, and I do not believe for one second that I have to kill myself off, working for someone else, at a job I hate, in order to get it. Nor do I think for one second that I have to take it to have it. I don't believe in earning anymore, and working hard should always be a choice, not something forced down anyone's throat. Do you know that hard labor used to be a prison sentence? So why do we value hard work so much, when it is really nothing more than a punishment?

It has nothing to do with responsibility. We are responsible for only one thing, our choices. Whether conscious or not, somewhere we make a choice and we live its consequences. Our life is a direct reflection of our choices. It is the mirror on the wall that shoes us very clearly how we see ourselves and the world we live in.

I am going to seek and hopefully either find or rediscover my passion. I am going to explore the world. My parents never went to Disnyeland, the Grand Canyon or to any of the Eight Wonders. They haven't even been overseas, as far as I know. The most adventurous thing that have ever done is attend an ACN conference in Chicago I think it was.

I don't want to live like that anymore, and with your help I will be able to. I am doing this, with or without your help. As far as I am concerned. grandma selling the house is a clear a sign as anyone would need that it is time for me to go, to change my life. I don't think anyone will find the life of their dreams while they sit on their couch, or their recliner. There is no reason things can't come to all of us on silver platters, but collectively humans believe that this doesn't happen, and is somehow bad or wrong to expect. So that is our experience. We created a life of struggle for ourselves. Someday we will learn to stop fighting and struggling and simply be. in oneness and receptivity.

Updates may be even fewer and further between these next few months or even years. I am hitting the road and I have no idea if or when I will return. I appreciate every reader of this blog, and everyone who supports my campaign. It's been a good run, I have enjoyed this experience, and learned a lot these last few years. But now graduation day is coming, as of June 1st it will be time for direct experience. Wish me well!

Monday, January 18, 2016

Tor Browser is forcing a prompt and a tiny screen resolution

Apparently the folks over at Tor feel that we have to have some sort of prompt if we maximize the Tor Browser window. Also, if we change the homepage to anything other than the default, we will no longer be able to maximize the Tor Browser window, and we will endure a prompt. The assholes that engineered this discuss it here:

I just fought with this for the last 2 hours. I would never have figured out what was going on if I hadn't found this link. I may demonstrate in a video tutorial later, maybe the community can figure out a way to patch this.

They tell is that we can be tracked by our screen resolution. So what? Why in the hell is that their business? It is my right to change my homepage, increase my screen resolution, and turn off this prompt. I will spend time later figuring out just how to do that. If I find anything I will post it here.

Just be aware that the folks working on Tor have gone off the reservation, gotten delirious with power or something. So you may need to find another way to access the hidden parts of the internet.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

NewEgg sucks!

Just a quick blog entry to tell you about my recent purchase at NewEgg. I have been a customer for many, many years, over a decade as a matter of fact. The computer I am using to write this article was built with components purchased at NewEgg. They have always been my go-to place for computer hardware.

But just as Hard Forums stopped being a good place to go to get computer related advice, NewEgg is no longer a good place to purchase computer related electronics. The only advantage they have over Amazon is that it is far easier to search through items, while at Amazon you have to wade through literally dozens of pages of crap, because Amazon is not keeping a good eye on its sellers. You will see the same mouse, listed from $19.95 to $24.95, often several of the same mice, usually a minimum of a dozen pages you have to scroll through. NewEgg is slightly infected in the same way, but you can select NewEgg products and still have a wide selection of higher quality stuff to go through. If you select Amazon as the seller all of a sudden you loose about 80% of your results.

What I can not forgive is NewEgg's return policy. I just purchased a refurbished keyboard/mouse setup from them. I only had to take it out of the box, identify the slant of the keys was not enough of me, and that the keys had stickers for the letters, to know that I wanted to return it for a refund. Guess how much that is going to cost me, as there is nothing wrong, as far as I know, with the product? A $5.00 restocking fee and $14.00 for a shipping label, which is supposed to be prepaid if I am returning within the time limit, which I am. I don't think the keyboard mouse set is worth the price of its return, and as it is a $50.00 retail item at least, I am just disgusted with the whole thing. For those who want to know its a Logitech Wave keyboard and mouse set. I think the price was about $30.00 for refurbished OEM.

If I had purchased this from Amazon I would have been able to return it with no restocking fee, and a good chance of free UPS pickup! I guess that is one more advantage that NewEgg has, you can find refurbished stuff. I have never seen anything like that at Amazon. The only other place is Tiger Direct, where I got a MadCatz RAT 5 for $19.99 and the TV I am currently using.

The worst thing about this whole thing is that I was price watching all through Black Friday. NewEgg had an EVGA and MSI mouse, among others, listed at $19.99. I had already ordered the RAT 5 so I waited. There was nothing, and I mean nothing, saying these prices were for a limited time. I watch for that green text next to the items listed at NewEgg like a hawk! Well now these mice have had their prices increased $10.00 - $20.00! I can only assume it is to price gouge shoppers for Christmas. It's just sad, and Amazon is doing the same fucking thing!

I have had enough I have to say. From the consistently higher prices at Amazon, the endless pages of repetitive junk listings, the $20.00 shipping costs for items that don't weigh more than a few ounces and aren't fragile or anything. To NewEgg's policy of profiting from its shoppers in its return and restocking fees. I think I am done with NewEgg for now, and I am about ready to quit Amazon. But at least at Amazon I can try something and return it almost effortlessly, and for very little cost.

Let this be a warning to you about NewEgg. The prices are $10.00 - $20.00 over what they were just a week ago, because they are trying to make money off of you for Christmas. If you buy something from them, and want to return it simply because you are not happy with the item. you will pay a huge restocking fee and shipping label fee, unless you opt to ship it yourself, and I can't guarantee you will save any money that way either.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

The Mystery of the Missing Magnesium

I was reading this article:

After searching for vegetarian sources of magnesium. Since yesterday evening I had been suffering from what I can only describe as, "Dwarves mining for gold in my skull." A real migraine in other words. I mentioned this to my mother today, after taking my 3rd Excederin, and she said I needed magnesium. I went out to their RV and nabbed some, taking one 250mg pill. Immediately I felt better. Not conclusive proof I know. But I did a little investigating in my kitchen and turned up some interesting results.

Cocoa was listed as one of the sources of magnesium. I looked at the gluten free brownie mix box, having had a few brownies today, and discovered that it had no magnesium. Same for my Swiss Miss simple dark chocolate cocoa mix. I looked at my frozen vegetarian meals, my coconut milk, Amy's French Veggie soup, mac 'n cheese, my stir-fry veggie mix, a can of kidney beans, my Bragg's Yeast Flakes even some almond butter. Almonds are also supposed to be high in magnesium. I checked a container of Quaker oats and a bottle of molasses.

Out of all of this guess what items actually had magnesium? My coconut milk, the oats, and the molasses. Not one other item had magnesium in it. At least it was not listed. I find this to be very suspicious. Sure, they could have just not listed it. But if this was something food companies did not list, why is it on these three products? Also the yeast flakes are a vegetarian supplement, why isn't magnesium in there? Why is it missing from the Hain's almond butter?

Either food companies aren't listing it, or they are making an effort to remove it from our food. If they are making an effort to remove it from our food, why? Magnesium helps you concentrate, it is very good for you. I would never go so far as to say you need it, like the meat companies say you need protein. I quote Thoreau on this, "One farmer says to me, 'You can not live on vegetable food solely, for it furnishes nothing to make bones with;' and so he religiously devotes part of his day to supplying his system with the raw material of bones; walking all the while he talks behind his oxen, which, with vegetable-made bones, jerk him and his lumbering plow along in spite of every obstacle."

I think this is something worth investigating, even the organic food companies like Amy's are either failing to list the magnesium in their products, or simply excluding it. In the meantime I advise you start taking a magnesium supplement, at least once a week, especially if you are having headaches that won't go away or a difficult time thinking clearly or concentrating. These may be linked back to a lack of this item in your food. If you are a vegetarian you are supposed to be getting this a lot in the food you eat. But as I discovered it is lacking in mine. Even the huge bag of basamati rice I bought at CostCo!

I am about to search for a vegetarian version of this supplement at Amazon. If I find one I will link to it below:

I chose this version of Magnesium because it appears to help with fatigue, something else I am dealing with, leading me to think that there is something else here I am not getting enough of. For relaxation and sleep it seems as if this kind of magnesium is best:

This mixes magnesium with lion's mane and bacopa. Very good option as a nootropic to take when you start your day:

This does as well, but with the valerian root it is probably best as something to take before bed, maybe to help with lucid dreaming:

Looks like someone else noticed this too:

More reading:

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Comcast Wins

UPDATED 11-3-2015

OK, before I get started, yes. Comcast is not actually behind this. They are not the ones sending out these notices or enforcing them. But they are still an evil anti-net neutrality corporation that needs to be destroyed. I am going to talk about this as if it is their fault, even if it actually isn't, and if you don't like that, tough.

So Comcast is sending out popups they inject into your browser, part of this 6-strikes thing you may have heard about. I guess they somehow measure the size of a file you have nabbed a link to from a torrent site, and if your file matches that size, they send you the warnings. Yes, sometimes you will receive notices about files you had nothing to do with. The system is not perfect.

They are getting your IP address from when you get the file. Too technical for me to properly explain. Something about incoming and outgoing. The end result is they get your IP and the notice is sent to the customer's primary account! Remember that, it is very important. If you are not logged into your primary account at Comcast/Xfinity you can not see the email notices.

Those notices warn you about the content you have, and the only way the popups disappear is after you have deleted the files. If its audio files in .flac, for example, you can convert them to .mp3 and delete the .flac. But if its a movie file that is harder to deal with. To appeal these notices will cost you $35.00.

Do not bother going to any Comcast satellite office. They do not provide technical support and will just give you an automated service number to call. The people on that line will give you another automated number to call. If you try chat with tech support online you will spend roughly 4-6 hours try to get help, as the people you talk to just stop talking to you. They will also try to get you to sign up for other services. I had to restart chat about a dozen times. I am not exaggerating.

After reading this you may start looking for a way to encrypt your IP address. So you can be anonymous. You can't use Tor, because they can get your IP on the outgoing. Sorry. You can't use i2p because it only allows you to download i2p torrents! The i2p site doesn't mention this for some reason, or I missed it.

I got i2p installed and running, got some torrents going, but nothing was downloading. I scratched my head, wondering what the hell was going on. Googled around - almost no information out there. Finally found an article on Reddit, and later a Yahoo answer, that explained this. Wasted 8 hours.

Your only option is to pay for a proxy or a VPN. You will want one with little or no record keeping. Anything you find that is free will be limited in speed or time. So your choice is to pay up to $50.00 a month for that, or just order the TV show you want from Amazon or YouTube. Hell it may even be cheaper just to get cable and a DVR box!

Comcast, CAS, MPAA, RIAA, they all win. For now. Until someone smarter than me figures out how to make a totally encrypted internet browser with a good torrent program built in that is free/open source and works with any torrent file out there. Until then you are downloading at your own risk.


OK, so I painted a pretty grim picture. But there is still one way to get the things you may want to get, and that is emule. I don't think they can track you with this, and you can search for files within the program, leaving no trace of your activities on the internet.

Share The Files is one of the largest communities:

You can get emule here, and there are mods as well:

Security updates here:

Emule is better than i2p as far as what is available. Be warned that this 0.60 version floating around from is not an official release, so stay away from it! Use the emule-project link I gave you above.

Share The Files is notorious for two things. 1. Most anime is subtitled, and any mention of English dubbed is either ignored or mocked. 2. Most of the time you will be lucky to get things in 720p. If you say anything about this, or complain about it, you will be banned. Also most requests are ignored.

Emule 0.50 should still be safe. However with the new measures Comcast/CAS or whoever is using, it is still download at your own risk. You are probably better off just quitting, at least for now.


I found another option, detailed in this video:


I have been using qBitTorrent for about a month now. I search for files within the program, using the old sites only as a reference, I do not click on any magnet or torrent links. I have received one CAS email since that time, and I have absolutely no clue how they were able to track that file, and why they are seemingly unable unable to track others. Everything is being done through software running on my computer. There is just something going on here I do not understand. In any case, be aware that while using an internal search for torrents, such as TorrentSearch or qBitTorrent is the safest option by far, it is still not free from prying eyes.

So I think I figured out what is going on... Under the guise of a releaser you trust, folks working for the CAS and whoever else is involved put up a file that is the genuine article, on the torrent networks. This file however has markers in it. So the CAS through Comcast can monitor your bandwidth, and when they see a marker, note it. My guess is there is one for the start of a file and the end of a file. Because if they were just monitoring bandwidth usage in general they would have no way to determine what single files you were downloading. So there has to be some sort of marker, embedded within the file, so they can monitor your bandwidth and figure out the exact size of that file, and then send you a CAS Copyright Violation Notice.

They are in the testing stages right now. They want a system that will work flawlessly and reliably. If this marker system works well enough, there will be more and more files released with these markers in them. Maybe they could even be put into the original broadcast of a show so that when it is recorded the markers are recorded right with it. They will either assume the name of a releaser you trust, so you download it, thinking you are safe, or they will create a new releaser group of their own, maybe establish it for a while, get a lot of people hooked, and when it is worth all the money they have to be putting into this, send in the authorities and lawsuits.

If they are using a marker system there is no way to protect yourself. It wouldn't matter if you hid your IP or never clicked on links at torrent sites. If it is in the original file, the releasers giving you the file may not even know it is there. But I think they are watching this, because the file in question for me has since vanished off the networks. The only way to deal with this is to create a program that quickly and easily finds these markers and removes them from a video file, without altering the original video and audio streams.

If I am right in my guess, we should be seeing such programs very shortly. Unless the releasers already have a program, or are developing one, and then using it themselves to clean files. This could be the case, because you see some releases with the word PROPER in it released after an earlier version of the exact same file.

The point is you can stop wasting money on your proxy, if your download bandwidth is being monitored, they have you by the balls, and there is nothing you can do about it. There is no way to protect your bandwidth, that I know of, from being monitored. If there was, that would be of greater value than a proxy. The CAS and those working for or with them know all about people rushing to hide their IPs. They have a play in place to protect their interests, you can trust me on this.


 I found another way you can protect yourself using an IP Filter:

This will only work with Tixati, and you will have to translate the steps if you are using anything other than Windows. The file path where you will copy the two files, in your Windows 7 instal directory, is:

How does this help you? Simple. Read this first:

As you have just learned, these companies aren't really bothering to watch the torrent sites. As I have explained in this post, there are ways around that. You can search in something like qBitTorrent then copy the magnet link across. Nothing to track there. So the only way to get you is to upload a file and watch who downloads it. They have a list they work from, they upload some part of the file, or maybe the whole thing, not sure which.

They find everyone downloading whatever they have shared, track back the info, clean it up, and send Comcast a message, resulting in an injected popup you have to click on. Then you have to go into your email and read their warning. Then you have to move or delete the file. Obviously sharing it will result in additional warnings.

To avoid all of this, use this automatically updating IP filter, and this will filter out the known unwanted IP addresses of those tracking people. Of course all these companies have to do is figure a way to generate new IP address on a regular basis that have to be found and blocked. But it will help block any known IPs from these companies still in use, protecting you.

If you are downloading torrent files, you are not safe!

Friday, May 15, 2015

A Few Questions To Consider Regarding Shell-No! and Artic Drilling

I caught a glimpse of this on the news today. If you are in the Seattle area, you can see this rig parked and ready to go. Some things in the news segment caught my attention. Rather than go into some big huge article, how about a few questions?

First of all the government is supposed to represent the people, correct? Well the people have made it very clear we do not want arctic drilling. Yet Obama went ahead and gave Shell the green light? Why? We know it's not because of any uncertainty. Look at the security they have around the rig! They know we don't want Shell to drill in the arctic, or else they would not have all that security in place and this 500 yard perimeter around it. So why are they going ahead with something we, the American people, do not want?

Secondly a law enforcement official of some sort made a comment they they could not comment on what would happen if someone breached the perimeter. Why? All law enforcement is there to protect and serve the people. They work for us, not the corporations and not the government. So it seems to me that we should be the first to know exactly what would happen if we crossed that perimeter. It has nothing to do with public safety. So what are we not privy to know the details of the law and how it will be enforced?

We, the American people, were not given a chance to vote on arctic drilling. We have not been given a chance to vote on switching to electric cars, which would remove our dependance on oil and help the environment. We were not given a chance to vote on many of our laws and the consequences should we break them. Our president is doing things in our name we don't even want, and so are our law enforcement officials.

So my last question... Have you even considered these two questions regarding this issue? Now that you have been presented with them, what will you do about it? Here is one step you can take:

I will post more later on the TPP and revoking the Patriot Act. For now here are some more links:

Sunset the Patriot Act

I feel naked - stop the NSA from spying on us:

Say no to the Trans Pacific Partnership