Monday, March 2, 2020

Dev Journal - 3-2-2020

So I have returned to Morrowind after nearly a decade away. Adding the Morrowind Modders section here at this blog. Started playing the game again. Building an account at Nexus Mods.

Returned to Valenwood today, and I realized a few things... First of all the scale is too big. Way too big. These huge boards that make up each platform aren't really in scale with the size of the NPCs and the characters. And I vaguely recall someone taking issue with the fancy armor and clothes I put on the NPCs. They were right. As well as whoever told me that the scale was off, if that vague memory is correct.

Secondly not so much a realization but a question. Why did I stop playing Morrwoind? Why did I leave the modding scene? I think part of it was that I was going through some internal changes. I would find that book on Lucid Dreaming at my local library and soon renounce my former Christian faith, only to then experience a belief systems crash. I would then start my first blog, fall in love with an anthropomorphic chipmunk (long story) and begin my second blog. I would also start playing the new Unreal Tournament and trying to penetrate into the new UnrealED. I started to build or finished building a new computer around this time, and spent a lot of time playing Venetica.

I can't remember if it was a conscious decision, or if I was drawn away like a cat transfixed by the next position of a laser pointer. Whatever happened, Valenwood remains unfinished, and I am not happy with the work I have done. I know, kind of, what I need to do with it. But now that I am using Blender and not 3DS Max, I am hesitant.

Will I ever fix Valenwood? Will I start over, or fix what's there? Where did all those years go? I am not sure. I will submit Valenwood to Nexus Mods sometime in the next few weeks. You can see Amaya Lodge there now.

Sunday, October 27, 2019

Confusion In Suburbia

Not far from where my parents and I currently live is a brand new development. It is full of big, fancy looking houses that likely have little or no craftsmanship in their builds. I think there are at least a dozen houses but there are likely more.

It is one of many new developments that have been built here in the Camas, WA area. There is one not far from here that makes me think of the Muggles houses in the Harry Potter movies - every house looks exactly the same.

As I was walking the extra-wide sidewalks of the development closest to me, I started doing the math in my head. $400,000 - $800,000 or more for each house. Few if any of these houses have been paid for in cash - it is most likely that loans were taken out to buy them.

Well things don't add up. In order to be approved for a house loan at your local bank or credit union you have to go through a bunch of hoops, you can't be hugely in debt and you must have some sort of collateral. I am pretty sure I am right about these general terms.

So that means each individual or family buying a house in the development would have had to have shown enough collateral or earning potential to get the initial loan for the first payment. Say 10% or so of the houses full cost. Likely it is far more. That means folks have at least $40,000 - $80,000 worth of whatever value is required.

Minimum wage is roughly $12.00 an hour. If you work 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week, you earn $480 a week, $1,920 a month. You probably don't have 40k of assets lying around. That means anyone earning minimum wage can not afford these houses.

In fact, it is likely that the monthly payment for each house before interest is around $4,000. I can't imagine there are many folk who are earning $4,000 a month. They would have to be in the minority, wouldn't they? I don't think all these houses are owned by business owners, lawyers or doctors. Can't be that many in this area.

But here is what doesn't add up... If you drive around this area, you will find a LOT of traffic, from the early morning to midnight. All these people driving around, and certainly most of them live in these houses. That means they are not going to work, earning the money needed to build any assets or pay their monthly bills.

If you add up your house payment, utilities. internet, cell phone bills, health insurance, life insurance, housing insurance and car payments - that is a LOT of money that folks should be working hard somewhere to earn. Yet they are all driving around during the day!

How is it these people are earning money? And how is it they got approved for loans to live in these houses? And how could an average hard working minimum wager ever hope to get themselves into one of these houses? What is it these people are actually doing during the day, other than going out to shop, eat or spend more money to go on vacation or buy toys?

I am confused by this. It seems to me that these people are living in some other reality than my own, even my parents and the lady they rent space from. How is it they found their way to jobs where they do not have to report to work somewhere, or even if they do, they are paid so hugely and well for whatever it is they do?

How do they pay all their bills, and at the same time managed to gather enough assets to use as collateral they can get a fancy new house? I heard children playing in one property. That's even more of an expense, a couple hundred more each year at least, and still more than that if their children have good medical and dental plans.

It doesn't made any sense! Going to college is not the solution either. A lot of influential people will tell you that going to college is how you get the higher paying jobs. But I am an honors graduate and I can't find any work at all, much less high paying work. I simply can not see how these folk somehow went from my position when they were younger and now have the kind of money to throw around to get these houses, without any equally great commitment to some workplace somewhere.

I know that somewhere in this development there are multiple families living together, sharing the load. Maybe they have connected friends who co-signed for them. And there have to be a few folk who work 80+ hour work weeks somewhere. But these are in the minority.

Most of those who live in these homes are a couple, some with children, most without. Usually they are middle-aged. Two-people in a sprawling, 4,000+ square foot house, 3-4 bedrooms including a master bed and bath with a walk-in closet. All that extra space they neither use nor need. Yet my parents couldn't even afford to rent a 1-bedroom apartment.

The worst thing about this is that nobody questions the system. Nobody spares a thought as to the ecological and economical impact these developments have. Nobody wonders how people are affording to live in these places. Nobody wonders why there is so much traffic during normal business house, when people should be at work. Everyone drives along, lost in their own little world, many trapped in a different reality than the one others seem to be living and thriving in. Why is that?

Friday, March 22, 2019

Save the Save The Internet Act!

It currently says this livestream is scheduled for March 26th:

The source page is here, at Fight for the Future:

OK, so what is going on here? Didn't we pass Net Neutrality laws over a year ago? Well, we did. The people spoke loud and clear, and our government passed the proposed bill. But a man named Ajit Pai, the Chairman of the FCC, basically reversed the decision. It has since come to light that he was working on behalf of what FFTF (Fight for the Future) calls Big Cable.

The end result is that the Net Neutrality laws we asked for and voted for were thrown out. Now there is a new bill called the, "Save The Internet Act" which will be voted on my congress in the next few days. Big Cable is trying to add some amendments to the bill that would ruin it, and we need to join together, in a, "The Internet is watching You" movement to be sure that the bill is passed unaltered.

Why is this important you ask? If you have Netflix look up a series called Adam Ruins Everything. In that series is an episode that broaches, lightly, on this subject. All backed up by legitimate research. Basically America has the slowest and most expensive internet of any developed country. This has occurred due to a variety of mistakes our government has made, including allowing cable companies to merge instead of promoting healthy competition.

Basically, in some areas of America, you only have Comcast to choose from, or Verizon. And these companies want to throttle your internet usage even more to give priority to businesses and companies that pay more. Comcast has already been monitoring its customers, as you may know. All these things that Big Cable have been doing, and want to do in the future, will serve only to slow down the internet even more, and, make it even more expensive.

You don't have to just accept things as they are. You don't have to resign yourself to slow internet speeds and high internet access prices. You don't have to just take it. You are the customer, and there are more of you than there are people working for Comcast, Verizon and other big cable companies. You have choices. You could boycott Big Cable. Or you could fight back in other ways, and showing your support for the Save The Internet Act is one way in which you can do this.

The details are on Fight for the Future's main page:

Share the link to this livestream with your social media connections. Get the word out there. Donate even a dollar or two if you have that to spare. Whatever you can do to get the word out, and help the folks at FFTF get the word out, do it. And make it clear to your government - the folks representing the area where you live - that you want this bill to be passed, unaltered.

Here is a link to their social media materials:

More information here:

Sunday, January 20, 2019

Possible Live Stream at YouTube Tomorrow!

I am considering doing a Live Stream tomorrow morning at YouTube around 10AM PST. Should start by 10:30AM. I will be reading a chapter from a book I am currently studying, entitled, "The Book of Knowing and Worth" by Paul Selig. Look for a link here just before it starts. The Live Stream will only start after I have posted a link to it below: UPDATE: Running a bit late, rushing through a bowl of cereal, will start in 15 minutes. Link will appear soon! Thank you for your patience! UPDATE 2: The Live Stream is now over. Ran out of time and I don't think my computer can handle it. Looking into other options now. OK, so I stupidly thought that the Live Stream would process on the servers of YouTube and all I needed was an internet connection. I mean others are doing it on their phones! But no, I have to use OBS to start the stream, then it is "capture" through YouTube or something like that. Anyhow I had to quit my idea for a Lets Play for Minecraft because my laptop simply can't handle recording and playing a game at the same time. I will go so far as to say it can barely handle recording inn real-time at all. It's a Dell Inspiron N5110, and it has a lot goin' for it - i3, 6 gigs of RAM. But I need an i7 and 8 gigs of RAM at a MINIMUM, and ideally I would have a modern 6-8 core processor and 16 gigs of RAM. I have a desktop computer that could, theoretically, handle everything. But I have no room for it where I currently live. Also my computer was made, by me, about 5-7 years ago, so it will likely fail without some upgrades. So yeah, Live Streams and Video Tutorials, and especially Let's Play, is off the agenda. Have to figure out some other content to share with you all, besides a blog.

Friday, November 16, 2018

Bullshit In Hollywood...

So I am going to cover a lot of bases here, and talk about a lot of things that have been bothering me. First up is Clayne Crawford being forced out of the Lethal Weapon series. Watch this video:

The important part here is something I have never seen before. It's a recording from on-set, a conversation between Wayans and Crawford, and it pretty much tells the whole story. I wish we could get more material like this! Basically it looks like Damon wanted to be the front man, but didn't want to put in the work. Meanwhile Crawford was writing the episodes, working with the stunt crew, and pretty much carrying the whole show. Yet they kick him out, without giving any sort of proper notice, and now they may attempting to blackball the man.

I wish that there was some way we could get together and hold not only Wayans, but everyone in charge who supported him, accountable for their actions. What they have done to Crawford, who is such a good actor we never got a hint of what was going on during the show, is inexcusable. It is Wayans who made the environment toxic, Wayans who didn't want to show up for the action scenes, and Wayans who never really wanted to be on the show in the first place. Wayans should have been kicked out, and Wayans should be blackballed, not Crawford! To add insult to injury, Wayans has up and quit at after finishing the last episode of season 3. So why did they have to kick Crawford out in the first place, and what is keeping them from bringing him back?

I don't know about you, but I am done with Lethal Weapon at the end of season 2. I am also going to look for petitions to sign to bring Crawford back and right the wrongs that have been done here. Here are some petitions:

You can hear from Crawford himself all of the shit they (Damon Wayans and those in charge) did to him in this video:

Next up is the series NCIS. We are being lied to, AGAIN, about Pauley Perrette. Someone started a rumor she left for a skin care line, which she has emphatically stated is not true. Others are saying that she has said, much like Michael Weatherly, that she just felt it was time to move on. But another rumor I can not yet validate says she left over a conflict between her and the only remaining main character, Mark Harmon. This rumor is supported by the fact that Perrette did not appear in any of the scenes with Harmon in her final episode.

The conflict was apparently over a dog that Harmon insisted on bringing to the set, that bit someone. Maybe that was a part of it, but it doesn't seem to me as if that would be enough. My guess is where we should be looking is squarely at Mark Harmon. He is the common denominator in all those who have left the show. I suspect he is behind the poor script writing for the character Ziva, causing Cote de Pablo to quit, and I would not be surprised that both Perrette and Weatherly finally had enough of his crap and just quit. I suspect that the character Ducky, played by David McCallum, is leaving next.

I have never been a big fan of NCIS. But I have watched a lot with my mother. I have always admired the character Gibbs. But its sad to now suspect that Mark Harmon is nothing like the character he portrays, that he may in fact be a bully, a sexist and a bad script writer to boot. I think its time to send him his walking papers and shut NCIS down, do another spin-off series in the same way NCIS was spun off of Jag, so they can have a new series with a similar theme and fresh actors.

Finally the most important news is that Stan Lee is dead. I mentioned somewhere about how it was rumored he was being treated. I guess his fight is over, I hope that the parties responsible are found out and legally dealt with. I am not saying Lee was murdered, but I am pretty sure when an old man says something like, "I just want to die" there are people behind it, draining him of the will to live. I think that is what happened here. Lee just gave up.

He has given us so many wonderful superheros, and I have enjoyed his many cameos over the years. I wish I could have met him. I wish I had been able to help him through what looked like a tough time, surrounded by scheming relatives and in-laws that wanted his money. But he is at peace now, in a better place, and they can't hurt him anymore.

I wish I had more power, in fact that we had more power, to step into situations like these and throw our weight around, to make things change. All we have is our petitions and maybe our blog posts and videos, for anyone who watches them. But it's not enough. Too many things are being done, have been done, that I know I do not approve of, and I am pretty sure I am not alone. I wish those of us who care had a say, had real authority, and the kind of money and legal power that we could open an investigation, find the guilty parties, and punish them according to their crimes. Maybe they haven't broken the law, but they have broken our trust, and they should have to answer for that.

RIP Stan Lee.